Amour et Douleur

Through my thirst for escape, I found clarity I managed to separate the fake from reality I managed to cry in peace without company I managed to delete all our photos together   I managed to go to our favourite restaurant alone I managed to recognise the tears before they came, and breathe through the pain I managed to stop seeing your face every time I close my eyes I managed to stop telling my friends all about you I managed to delete the voice notes you left me, telling me you loved me I managed to stop blaming myself I managed to stop falling apart every time I put myself together I have not managed to stop loving you.    

Haunted by the thoughts of existential peril - Beyond Alice’s rabbit hole is where I meddle. I speak less and let my mind wander more I open doors most would leave closed just to see if the deathly hallows still follow me in the shadows Completely enamoured by her beauty, she thinks I’m under her spell I told her, through your eyes I see where your soul still lies, and that's why there could never be a you and I.